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John Brush was serving his second stint in prison when his 8-year-old son visited.

The two hugged 鈥� only brief contact was allowed 鈥� and sat on opposite sides of a square table in the prison鈥檚 cafeteria-style visiting room along with Brush鈥檚 then-wife, Heather Saxton.

Other inmates sat at similar tables, having conversations with visitors seated across from them.

To the side were soda and candy machines, along with toys for children to play with. Guards stood watch.

Brush talked with his son, Kayson, and the two caught up. Kayson told Brush how much he missed and loved him.

Then he told Brush that he wanted to go to prison, just like his father.

鈥淚 was in shock when he first told me. It made me feel guilty about everything I did in the past,鈥� said Brush, 35. 鈥淎nd that was pretty much the end of it. That鈥檚 when I said 鈥榥o more.鈥欌��

Brush, with multiple felonies checkering a long criminal record, decided to pursue a bachelor鈥檚 degree. An Ammon resident, he started taking classes at University Place after he was released from prison in 2008.

He wanted to provide better lives for himself and his children.

鈥淲hen I was in prison there were a lot of fathers and sons in there that had done 10, 20 years (together). And I didn鈥檛 want to be that person,鈥� Brush said. 鈥淚 put myself in school to show my son there鈥檚 another way.鈥�

Growing up, Brush didn鈥檛 care about school; his highest GPA in high school was a 1.3. Outside of the classroom, he fell into bad habits.

In 1999, the then 18-year-old was charged with statutory rape after police busted a party that he was at with his 17-year-old girlfriend. The relationship was consensual; he didn鈥檛 have to register as a sex offender, but he was put on probation.

And he was drinking heavily and using drugs. In 2003, Brush broke probation with possession of methamphetamine. Sentenced to 10 years, he spent two in the Idaho State Correctional Center in Kuna.

Not a chip off the old block

John鈥檚 father, Gary Brush, was a celebrated Idaho State Police officer at the time working in Pocatello.

鈥淭he day I got arrested for possession, he was getting an award for his job,鈥� Brush said.

Gary鈥檚 role as a police officer created friction between him and his son.

鈥淓very parent wants the best for their kids, and when things happen, it hurts them as much as it hurts the person. Some people make good decisions and some bad, and even the good people make bad decisions sometimes,鈥� Gary said.

After beginning his first sentence, John learned that his father played a part in getting him arrested.

鈥淚 was mad at him for a long time. Then about six months into my sentence we started talking, and got closer and closer,鈥� John said.

In prison, John married Saxton. Divorced now, the two share custody of four children. John was also served paternity papers in prison for two children with other women.

After being released from prison in 2005, he started drinking again. He was sentenced to two years in the Idaho State Correctional Institution for breaking parole.

鈥淚t was depressing. I knew I was going back before it happened; I鈥檇 drive down the road thinking 鈥榊ou screwed up,鈥欌�� John said. 鈥淚 was actually glad to be back. It gave me enough time to focus on what I wanted to do. And when my son visited, it kind of changed everything.鈥�

A welcoming environment

After being released again in 2008, John had to avoid many of the people who were associated with his old life. At times he was almost scared to leave his house.

鈥淕rowing up it was always about trying to prove myself to other people, so I made a lot of bad choices. And after I got out those people weren鈥檛 really around; they didn鈥檛 support me. So I was done, I got tired of screwing myself,鈥� John said.

He moved in with his mother, Cindy Hronek-Brush, in Idaho Falls. An Idaho State University employee, she encouraged John to register for classes at University Place.

University Place, because of its proximity to John鈥檚 other children, was the only option available for him to earn a bachelor鈥檚 degree.

He transferred to the 果冻传媒麻豆社 in 2013.

John earned a bachelor鈥檚 degree in industrial technology this spring after nine part-time years in college.

Debbie Caudle, undergraduate academic advisor for UI鈥檚 Idaho Falls campus, worked closely with John while he took classes.

鈥淗e鈥檚 an excellent student, and I couldn鈥檛 ask for a better advisee 鈥� he鈥檚 always positive,鈥� Caudle said.

Father-son reconciliation

Apart from taking classes and raising his children, John worked at the ISU information desk. His first day there, he found out his wife was pregnant with twins. She had to have emergency labor less than five months later and the children had to live in a hospital 鈥� one of them for more than a year.

Even though he worked and regularly flew to hospitals in Utah and Boise where his daughter lived for the beginning of her life, Brush managed to stay on top of his schedule and maintain a 3.5 GPA. He aced difficult classes 鈥� chemistry and physics 鈥� but there still were struggles. Brush is trying to move on from his past, but it takes time. He said he鈥檚 cut out almost all drinking.

鈥淗e鈥檚 learned to see the consequences of his actions and change his way of thinking,鈥� Gary said. 鈥淗e鈥檚 accomplished stuff that I never could鈥檝e done with a family, going to school and working. I鈥檓 amazed. I鈥檓 a proud father.鈥�

Gary was another vital support for John after he was released from prison the second time. The two used to go on daily morning walks in Pocatello. After John separated from his wife, Gary was the first to call and offer John a place to stay for the weekend.

Nowadays Gary visits John in Ammon, and the two eat at Papa Tom鈥檚 Pizza, or bring John鈥檚 kids to the park.

鈥淚 don鈥檛 think I鈥檝e been more appreciative of somebody in my life,鈥� John said. 鈥淚t felt crappy to do that to him, to go into the stuff he was trying to prevent, but he鈥檚 always been supportive, good or bad. He makes me more of who I want to be.鈥�

Overcoming his past

Despite his degree, John鈥檚 criminal record is a barrier to employment.

鈥淏ut just having a felony doesn鈥檛 mean you鈥檙e destined to flip burgers. We have people who work in high-paying fields and do very well,鈥� said Dan Ziegler, adult felony probation supervisor for the Idaho Department of Correction.

鈥淚f it鈥檚 someone who鈥檚 done their time, paid for their sins, a lot of employers are looking to give people second chances. And if you鈥檝e had success after a conviction, that means a lot. A lot of people who鈥檝e been through the system can鈥檛 say that.鈥�

Caudle and UI-IF Associate Dean Lee Ostrom have been searching for a pro bono lawyer to strike some of the charges from John鈥檚 record. They鈥檝e also written letters of support and helped him through career fairs.

After finishing school, John had to quit his job at ISU. Since then, he鈥檚 turned in resumes and had interviews for safety supervisor jobs in manufacturing/industrial sectors, though he hasn鈥檛 heard back yet.

This is the longest period in John鈥檚 adult life he鈥檚 gone without a job, even counting his time incarcerated.

鈥淚鈥檒l feel better once I have a job. But every time I fill out a resume and put that I have a bachelor鈥檚 degree on there, that feels pretty phenomenal,鈥� Brush said. 鈥淚 don鈥檛 regret my experiences, and I don鈥檛 regret prison. I don鈥檛 know if I鈥檇 still be here today if not for prison.鈥�

• This article was written by Kevin Trevellyan for the . It published on June 20, 2016. It has been edited from its original version. .

About the Photo

John Brush said his biggest inspiration for earning his bachelor鈥檚 degree were his children, including his 7-year-old twins Adyn, center, and Adyson Brush. 鈥淚 wanted to show them that even though people make mistakes you can come back. And I wanted something better. I didn鈥檛 want to live paycheck-to-paycheck; I just wanted to be able to take care of my family and myself.鈥� Photography by Pat Sutphin of the Idaho Falls Post Register.